I’m been trying to become the Jeff I prefer again. The one who writes, goes to the gym, cooks a lot, loses weight, and on and on… I’ve encountered him before, and miss him.
But, truth be told, he’s a lot of work. And I think trying to go from this version, which… well does very little of the above, to the good version, is a rather tall order. Plus, I doubt when the good version was in full swing that it all happened at once. Only now do I try to make such an abrupt switch.
It is like I’ve never juggled and want to start with six balls. Not one to get the rhythm, two to learn the motions, three to find the timing, and on and on… nope. All six balls… go!
And that’s just too many balls for me to handle without warming up (If you’re wondering, yes, I intentionally write sentences like that to amuse myself).
I’ve read sites about how to form positive habits, and how the brain works, and blahblahblah, and it seems like you’re supposed to do one thing, and keep doing it for quite a while, until it forms a habit that you start to naturally do without prompting. And then… add something new.
This is basic stuff, but the basics are always the hard part.
So, I was faced with a dilemma. What ball do I want to grab first?
The two main contenders are the weight loss ball (which is both the gym and the cooking combined) or the writing ball.
Obviously, I want the results of both NOW, which is impossible. So, I had to choose.
And, I chose writing.
It was a bit surprising, since I’m probably at my heaviest, and it does annoy me to no end. But in February, I’ll be staying outside of NYC and seeing no theater. So, that huge gap in my social calendar seems too perfect for writing.
Now, being away from everything may kick everything on the right track, which would be fine. And, honestly, I’m not going to a vegan haven, so I will have to cook a lot, so who knows…
But the plan right now is to gear everything around writing, then the fitness/weight stuff, and by then I should have finished the first writing project and moved on to the second.
I do wish I had more exciting balls in the mix, but that’s not at hand right now.